thirty

Caught up feeling low on mercy

Thought I’d be more sure by thirty

But time doesn’t know my need

Made my choices, weathered seasons

Took my losses, gave my reasons

And watched as I lost my dream

Tell me what did I do with me?

Still I’m trying

But I’m struggling to see

And the striving

Is wearying me

If dying is the key to be set free

Will you help me?

‘Cause I’m still here

Holding to the hope in me

But I’m still here, growing

Will you grow in me?

Same old moments and routines

These days and hours

Minutes fleeting

I’m caught in my own machine

Tell me what did I do with me?

When it’s quiet

I remember that You are abiding

But those moments are few

If dying is the only sure way through

Help me trust You

‘Cause I’m still here

Holding to the hope in me

But I’m still here, growing

Will you grow in me?

Lord I’m still here

Holding to the hope in me

But I’m still here, growing

Will you grow in me?

Will you grow in me?

Will you grow in me?