My christmas

Air is getting colder

Water’s freezing over

Last of all the leaves down on the ground

Memories on my shoulders

I feel a little older

Every time my mind turns back around

So tell me when the night is done

‘Cause I’m waiting for my Christmas to come

I can see the lighting

And I can hear the singing

But can you tell me where the wonder’s gone?

And tell me what do I believe in?

Am I missing something?

Or am I getting closer to the dawn?

So tell me when the fire is on

‘Cause I’m waiting for my Christmas to come

So tell me when the night is done

‘Cause I’m waiting for my Christmas to come

I’m waiting for my Christmas to come

Good news is here

Jesus is near

It’s done

His kingdom come

 more to this

I said someday when I’m older, I’ll live my dreams

And when I get my things in order, I’ll be free

But there are some things only years of life can teach

And I’m learning there is more to this than me

Well, this life moves on like seasons of a tree

The branches grow but wither eventually

And every time that cold wind comes to take away my leaves

I remember there is more to this than me

Hollow learning

Lord I’m sorry

Empty yearnings

Lord I’m sorry

Aimless burning

Lord I’m sorry

I’m returning

Lord I’m sorry

I’m sorry

 thirty

Caught up feeling low on mercy

Thought I’d be more sure by thirty

But time doesn’t know my need

Made my choices, weathered seasons

Took my losses, gave my reasons

And watched as I lost my dream

Tell me what did I do with me?

Still I’m trying

But I’m struggling to see

And the striving

Is wearying me

If dying is the key to be set free

Will you help me?

‘Cause I’m still here

Holding to the hope in me

But I’m still here, growing

Will you grow in me?

Same old moments and routines

These days and hours

Minutes fleeting

I’m caught in my own machine

Tell me what did I do with me?

When it’s quiet

I remember that You are abiding

But those moments are few

If dying is the only sure way through

Help me trust You

‘Cause I’m still here

Holding to the hope in me

But I’m still here, growing

Will you grow in me?

Lord I’m still here

Holding to the hope in me

But I’m still here, growing

Will you grow in me?

Will you grow in me?

Will you grow in me?

 Learn to Die

Can’t escape it

I’ve tried

Oh, your death comes for me every time

Why’re you hiding, soul of mine?

If you want the morning, then learn to die

In a moment

I find

That my best intentions still expire

Are you willing to sacrifice?

Will you take your cross, lay down your life?

If you want the morning, then learn to die

If you want the morning, then learn to die

If you want the morning, then learn to die

Will you learn to die?

First comes death, then comes life

And every death is right on time

First comes death, then comes life

And every death is right on time

 FIND MY HOME

I am sinking in the water and I feel alone

And I am chasing after things I can call my own

But those things, they keep on failing me

They don't give what I need to find my home

To find my home

Sometimes I wonder why I'm breathing

Sometimes I don't

Sometimes I want the things around me to give me hope

But that kind of hope’s deceiving

And it leads me down a dark, familiar road

Yeah, that kind of hope’s deceiving

And it leads me down a dark, familiar road

I want to know where I am going and I want to grow

I want to know that You are with me, and that You're close

So, will You show me what I'm missing?

Will You show me what I really want the most?

Yeah, I know I'm missing something

So, will You show me what I need to find my home?

To find my home

Will you show me what I'm missing?

Will you show me what I really want the most?

Yeah, I know I'm missing something

So, will you show me what I need to find my home?

To find You

 TRUTH

I'm in a sea of

All that I dream of

They're coming in and going out into a big flood

And I'm a big rug

Under the feet of

Another thought, another hope, another reason

But here's the problem

See, they're not stopping

They're all around me waging war

Until I pick one

But if I pick one

Will it fill my cup?

Or will it hurt and keep me burning

'Til I'm dried up?

It seems the more I live, the more I'm cheating

I want to learn to love, but I'm so greedy

Truth, truth

I pick something up, and get nothing

Truth, truth

I need something more to believe in

Cause I know nothing about love

But all I know is I want more

Truth, truth

I give up, so won't you give...

Wait

I'm feeling something

But it's just a moment

And when it leaves it will remind me that I'm choking

But if I'm choking

Where does the rope lead?

Oh, can you show me?

Can you hear me?

Can you help me?

Truth, truth

I pick something up, and get nothing

Truth, truth

I need something more to believe in

Cause I know nothing about love

But all I know is I want more

Truth, truth

I give up, so won't you give me something?

It seems the more I live the more I'm cheating

I want to learn to love but I'm so greedy

I want to know you're there but I keep sinking

Will you please remind me why I'm breathing?

Truth, truth

I pick something up, and get nothing

Truth, truth

I need something more to believe in

Cause I know nothing about love

But all I know is I want more

Truth, truth

I give up, so won't you give me something?

 Holding

We’re not lost, we’re just holding

On to things we don’t need

We’re not broke, we’re just broken

Trying to learn how to breathe again

We’re not lost, we’re just holding

On to things we don’t need

We’re not broke, we’re just broken

Father please help us breathe again

Help me see again

 Promised LAnd

Breathing, staying

Here in this corner

Keeping these borders

Sleep, sleep, sleep it off

Sheeting, scaping

Everything over

Make it look older

Sweeping, raking

Under the rug

And keeping it tucked

Hold up

You ‘gotta move

You ‘gotta choose

You ‘gotta shake the mold

You ‘gotta hope

You ‘gotta lose

You ‘gotta let it go

Well every now and then I see things clearer

But now and then I forget what's clear

So take me, take mine

I need another chance

I need another try

Take me, take mine

I'll give it all I have, leave everything behind

Give me the thunder, I'll make the time

Don't want to give it up, I'm going to make it right

Take me, take mine

Give me the promised land

Give me the other side

Come on

Tweaking, Shaping

Every infection

Into perfection

Undertaking

Every regret

And letting them win

No no

You ‘gotta move

You ‘gotta choose

You ‘gotta shake the mold

You ‘gotta hope

You ‘gotta lose

You ‘gotta let it go

Well every now and then I see things clearer

But now and then I forget what's clear

So take me, take mine

I need another chance

I need another try

Take me, take mine

I'll give it all I have, leave everything behind

Give me the thunder, I'll make the time

Don't want to give it up, I'm going to make it right

Take me, take mine

Give me the promised land

Give me the other side

Come on

I ‘wanna hear that thunder

I ‘wanna feel that grace

But when I'm going under

All I ‘wanna do is hide away

But no

Take me, take mine

I need another chance

I need another try

Take me, take mine

I'll give it all I have, leave everything behind

Give me the thunder, I'll make the time

Don't want give it up, I'm going to make it right

Take me, take mine

Give me the promised land

Give me the other side

Come on

 Love Isn’t Easy

Little by little

These riddles get bigger

The more I wait

Caught in the middle of simpler wishes

And other ways

I ‘wanna change it

But it's hard

‘Cause there's a wall here

In my heart

Living on these feelings

Holding on to secrets

I'm running here in the open

But I'm hiding from Your view

You gave me a weight I can't hold

But I'm still hanging on to You

Love isn't easy to do

Love isn't easy with You

Living and breathing

And making up reasons to change my mind

Seconds into minutes into temporary seasons

Of "this is why"

I ‘wanna change this

But it's hard

‘Cause there's a wall here

In my heart

Living on these feelings

Holding on to secrets

I'm running here in the open

But I'm hiding from Your view

You gave me a weight I can't hold

But I'm still hanging on to You

Love isn't easy to do

Love isn't easy with You

‘Cause the closer that I get to letting go

I grow

But the more I grow the more I must let go

I'm running here in the open

But I'm still hiding from Your view

You gave me a weight I can't hold

But I'm still hanging on to You

Love isn't easy to do

Love isn't easy with You

 Looking For Soul

Run

Just run away from love

That's what they say but

Lonely ain't a part of me

Only takes a start to be stung

But I've been so patient, love

And I just can't wait much more

Save a test for me

Give me what I need to see

I know there's something more to me

I'll  keep moving on

I'll find my way

I'll forget what's gone

I'll know my place

Oh I'm all but lost

Just looking for soul

So I'll plunge

Forever I'll jump at once

I hear what they say but

Lucky ain't a way to be

I ‘wanna know what's bringing me up

It's hitting me all at once

But I just can't feel the punch

I ‘wanna wait and see

But time just turns to memory

I know there's something more to me

I'll  keep moving on

I'll find my way

I'll forget what's gone

I'll know my place

Oh I'm all but lost

Just looking for soul

I'll  keep moving on

I'll find my way

I'll forget what's gone

I'll know my place

Oh I'm all but lost

Just looking for soul

No more system

No more wishing for gold

Hear that rhythm

Feel it deep in my soul

I'll  keep moving on

I'll find my way

I'll forget what's gone

I'll know my place

Oh I'm all but lost

Just looking for soul

Just looking for soul

Looking for soul,

Just looking for…

 Ticket

I see it coming, my heart is palpitating

I can't shake the feeling swimming all under my skin

I feel the mystery of the surface almost breaking

And I just want my soul to win

You gave me hope but I'm still looking for the meaning

I feel that purpose but sometimes I don't feel strong

Though I keep on believing in a light that I cant see yet

I know you'll keep me holding on

I just want to

Tell everybody

What I am all about

That I've made it finally

That I got my my ticket out

I'm feeling stronger now

Just want my ticket out

So many times I take the long way just to take it

I try so hard to stay away from what is wrong

Still I'm not ready but I know that I will make it

I know you'll keep me holding on

I just want to

Tell everybody

What I am all about

That I've made it finally

That I got my my ticket out

I'm getting stronger now

Just want my ticket out

Oh ‘cause

Times keep changing

Life keeps racing on and on

‘Want to know I made it

When my days are gone

Tell everybody

What I am all about

That I've made it finally

I got my my ticket out

And I am stronger now

Just want my ticket out

Just want my ticket out

 More

I think I've hit the deep end

I think that I have lost my way

Because I can’t break the feeling

That I'm missing every single thing

You're the only one I want now

I want to give you everything

But even in our best times

There's something standing in the way

‘Cause if I didn't need something more

There'd be no tears on your face

And if I didn’t need something more

I would be yours today

But I need to wait

You tell me all your secrets

You pour your heart into my brain

But I am losing a connection

And feeling emptier with every day

Tell me this is just a moment

I wish I knew that it would go away

'Cause I don't wanna see the ending, no

I don't want our love to go to waste

‘Cause If I didn't need something more

There'd be no tears on your face

And if I didn’t need something more

I would be yours today

But I need to wait

Yes I need to wait

Wish I could explain this

‘Cause I feel it bursting in my mind

My heart or our love

I don't know which one to sacrifice

‘Cause I need to wait

Yes I need to wait

I need to wait

‘Cause I need to wait

I need to wait

 Don’t Believe a word That I Say

I'm running for something completely terrifying

And I'm trying to make it my own

But I'm hoping for something that only time can show me

So why can't my head let it go?

I just want a little peace in my mind

But the more that I learn, the harder I try

‘Hit the ground from the nest

And I'm still alive

But I'm failing the test

I'm living a lie

So don't believe a word that I say

I’m only learning and I'm full of mistakes

My brain is jumping all out of place

Oh why am I holding on to what's in the way?

I wonder why comfort is something I seek after

When there's so much I'll never know

I try to push further and get stronger

But every thought gets harder and harder

So why can't I just let it go?

Don't believe a word that I say

I’m only learning and I'm full of mistakes

My brain is jumping all out of place

Oh why am I holding on to what's in the way?

I'm tired of needing something to fill me

Tired of seeking something that kills me

I'm tired of wishing for something more

When I know it's only ‘gonna make me want a little more

‘Said I'm tired of needing something to fill me

Tired of seeking something that kills me

I'm tired of wishing for something more

When I know it's only ‘gonna make me want a little more

So don't believe a word that I say

I’m only learning and I'm full of mistakes

My brain is jumping all out of place

Oh why am I holding on to what's in the way?

I’m holding on to what’s in the way

I’m holding on to what’s in the way

 Insanity

This vessel runs a long way up

The waves are never ending

These rows are tough and push so much

Still fight the stream so gently

Dreams don't go but life gets old

And things fall through the corners

Reasons hold the meanings though the truth won't show an order

Its like I'm driving through the sea

But the wheels are turning

Swimming on the streets

But the waves are coming

Flying with no wings

All the living and the learning

Oh, it's just insanity

Minds forgive but don't forget

And thoughts can win you over

Passion lives but it can slip

And hide what's under cover

Love builds rust but hearts stay young

And happiness remembers

Confusion sways and feelings fade

Won't ever take surrender

Its like I'm driving through the sea

But the wheels are turning

Swimming on the streets

But the waves are coming

Flying with no wings

All the living and the learning

Oh, it's just insanity

Though effort strays away from fate

Still time brings them together

So when the ceiling caves

You break away and do it for the better

Its like I'm driving through the sea

But the wheels are turning

Swimming on the streets

But the waves are coming

Flying with no wings

All the living and the learning

Oh, it's just insanity

 Seeds to Sow

The tide is up but the water's low

And I'm calling to let you know

That I went too far, and I lost the flow

But there's something I found below

Well I was so desperate for reasons

Caught up in running out

But I didn't know what I needed

And time brought me to the ground

Another blink and were getting older

We ‘wanna last and we don't know how

But if we pretend we can live forever

Maybe we can slow it down

Well I have my ground with some seeds to sow

And I'm trying to make them grow

But the rain stays out and the sun won’t show

And I’m dying just to hold my own

Another blink and were getting older

We ‘wanna last and we don't know how

But if we pretend we can live forever

Maybe we can slow it down

If we pretend that we can live forever

Maybe we can slow it down

Well I was so desperate for reasons

Caught up in running out

But I didn't know what I needed

And time brought me to the ground

Another blink and were getting older

We ‘wanna last and we don't know how

But if we pretend we can live forever

Maybe we can slow it down

Maybe we can slow it down